To A Wounded Soldier

This is one of the toughest battles of your life. You’ve been dodging bullets and avoiding canons. You started off with a wonderful group of soldiers right by your side. As things got tough, they dropped off one by one until you’re on the front line by yourself. They didn’t want to fight with you. You’re on your own. This place you are in now is not where you are supposed to be and you can’t move backwards. You’re surrounded by the enemy on all sides so the only way to become safe is to keep pushing forward. Right now you don’t seem to understand what is going on. 

Here’s the issue: When you keep fighting a battle that is no longer yours, that’s where you find yourself in a tough spot. Who is to say that God isn’t already fighting the battle for you, but he’s just waiting on you to be still and let Him take control. We all know the infamous saying, “The Battle is Not Yours, It’s the Lord’s.” Well this may be one of those instances. Sometimes God makes us fight battles to see if we are truly on the front line for him. He tests us to see if we can advance in our Spiritual Military Rank. Those battles are our personal trials to overcome and win. Other times, God puts us in these tough fights because he wants us to get a few scratches and bruises. Why? No pain, No gain. God makes no mistakes on who he throws on the battlefield. He gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. At times, he lets us lose a few battles so that we can TRUST him enough to win the war. He wants us to know, and I quote one of my favorite Donald Lawrence songs “I am God all by myself, I don’t need any help.” 

You see… We get complacent in thinking that since we won the last war, we can do it again on our own especially when our fellow soldiers have seemed to run away. God wants us to know that He is still there and He is in control. You prayed and fought, got a few scratches along the way. Soldier, it’s time to let the Commander in Cheif take control. Put this one in God’s Hands. He won’t fail. 

Love you all! Xo.

Tiana

Twitter: CutiePiee_
“I will say of the Lord, He is my Refuge and my Fortress, my God; on Him I lean and rely, and in Him I [confidently] trust!”  Paslm‬ ‭91:2‬ ‭AMP‬‬

“The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace and remain at rest.” Exodus‬ ‭14:14‬ ‭AMP‬‬

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Disappointment

Disappointment can be one of the toughest pills to swallow. It’s really worse than being upset. Have you ever had your hopes set higher than reality, yet it is not fulfilled. Life is full of disappointments, but how do we deal with them? I’m stepping into place of reflection right now to be transparent, so patient with me as I break this down.

Usually disappointment comes from something or someone that is held in high esteem. It hurts when you have to be let down, but also regroup and find another plan of action. It seems like disappointments are all that you deal with. I went through a place where I was let down time after time. Hoping for that big scholarship. Denied. Somehow I was good, but not good enough. Leaning on people for support. Denied. They seemed to be the ones who turned against my dreams. Looking forward to my first semester of college being a breeze. DENIED. I’ve learned more life lessons than I thought I could handle (read my previous post). At one point it seems like all of it was happening back to back.

When you’re in that place of disappointment, it hurts more than anything. Things have happened that you had no control over, which makes the reality of it so much worse. It seems to trump all of the good things that you have encountered.

Now here’s where I shift: Your disappointment is meant to redirect you! That’s it. It’s just that simple. May be easier said than done, but it is the truth. Did you disappointment deny you from something? Well, make another plan of action to achieve that one thing! Somebody let you down? Lean on God more, and learn to make things happen for yourself. Things are tough? change your routine to make it easier on yourself. Got the complete opposite outcome? Learn the lesson, but KEEP PUSHING! Take those disappointments and make them positive.

No matter what it is, you have the power to change! Life and Death is in the power of the tongue! First you must think it, then speak it into existence! You have the power to change your disappointments. All things work together for your good! No matter how they look, you can make it better.
The key is:
1) GOD
2) The power you have to command your life!
Once you realize the power you have over your life, nothing will be able to stop you. It may bring you down for a second, but it will not keep you down!

I love you all! Xo.
Tiana

Twitter: Cutiepiee_

Four Months of Life

College is really a preparation for life. You’re placed put in the world having to be on your own, making important decisions and planning for the rest of your days to come. For me, it is one of the most bittersweet times. I’ve only been in college for one semester, but that was enough to change me for the rest of my life.

This is my first time on my own in the world. Five hundred miles away was a big step for me seeing as the longest I left home was a week. I struggled and still struggle with being on my own. It is difficult when you have to rely on phone calls and text messages to keep in touch when everyone is so far away. Sometimes loneliness will sneak up on you and smother you. It’s rough mentally, physically and emotionally. There is no hug from the ones you need it the most. Emotions become unbearable because nobody understands. Mental strength leaves when you need it the most because of late nights, early mornings and busy days.

You learn who is truly for you. Those who claim that they will send things and keep in touch seem to disappear with each passing day. You’re forced to make friends with people who come from different parts of the world and can be completely different than you. Sometimes that call or text to someone back home isn’t answered until the next day, if its answered at all.

Survival becomes your life. Especially for a student traveling so far from home, everything is no longer at your disposable. Some days you have to go without the things that you need. Money starts to run low. The cafe isn’t serving anything worth eating. You have to learn how to work with what you have because what you have is all that you get.

You can no longer be the carefree person that you once were. There is no room for mistakes. Pity is no longer granted. Every choice you make virtually impacts your life. At times, there is no help, so you have to make your own way and somehow think of something out of nothing.

God is really the only thing that keeps you sane. Through all of it, He really is the only one to see you through all of the craziness, although the craziness seems to make Him feel so far away.

Don’t get me wrong, college is amazing. The freedom is endless. The parties are always jumping. The new relationships that you make are priceless. The experience is wonderful. It’s just the lessons that can be hard. Life lessons, I mean. The big point in all of this is: College has taught me that pain only pushes you forward. Some days the pain is unbearable, but it’s helping you to grow. I just so happen to be in that stage myself. As I evaluate what I have gone through in these last few months, I can’t see my lessons as being all bad, even though the pain of learning it is tough. You must take things with a grain of salt and see the lesson behind it all. Open up your mind to the big picture and release yourself from the small box of only seeing things for face value. Life is so much bigger than that. It’s amazing for me to think about how only four months of college has forced me to be outside of my comfort zone and really, I mean really have to put on my big girl panties. Some days, I must admit, I can be a baby. Comparing August to now, I am so much more than when I began.

For those of you who are on your way to college, just know, everything happens for a reason. Your end result will be better than the beginning if you just stick through the process no matter how tough the process is.

I love you all! Xo.
Tiana

Twitter: Cutiepiee_

Storms

Hello all!

It’s been a while since I have blogged, but I am back. Bare with me on this one. As a warning, I am going to be very transparent. I am not a big fan of putting personal issues on social media, but I feel led to be an open book for the simple fact that my aim is to heal, and to help someone else heal. This post is not meant for all, but for those going through a storm. If you are not going through a rough time, bypass this message and go on with your merry day. If you are a person that is at a place where you are stuck, where you feel overwhelmed, and where you feel like you are not understood by anyone… This is for you.

In order for you to further understand the simple fact that I am going to give you at the end of this post, you must understand that you are not alone. Have you ever felt like nothing, no matter how hard you try, is working out for you? The people who are supposed to be your support system are the very ones trying to hold you back. Friends become less and less with each passing day OR you are surrounded by people yet you are lonely. The more you push to work and succeed, the more things begin to fail. You try to make everyone happy, although it makes you feel worse. You get enough sleep, yet your mind, body and spirit is drained. Optimism isn’t making the day brighter. When you are at the point of breaking down, you can’t. “You have to remain strong,” they say. Tears have fallen from your eyes so much that you have no tears left. Venting doesn’t help because nobody truly understands how you feel. The devil just keeps attacking you from every direction. You are fighting a battle within yourself along with the battle you are fighting against the world. YOU. ARE. BROKEN. I can say this because I understand. This is me.

If anything or everything I have just said relates to you, then listen closely.

Are you ready?

Well, Here it is:


GIVE IT ALL TO GOD!

Why? God is the greatest comforter. When nobody is there to listen, he is right there. Things fail, but he has a strategy for you. God is all you need. It took me a long time to fully understand. God had to break me in order to trust, depend, and look only to him. Life can sometimes get in the way to cloud your vision of who is really there for you. Your storm that you are in is almost over. The funny thing about storms is they are an indication that something major is on the way. Your storm is preparing you for what you were not ready to receive. The closer you get to your blessing, the darker the clouds and the heavier the storm gets but the end is brighter than the beginning! Isaiah 41:10 says “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” He did not bring you this far to leave you! Just hold on.

I hope that I have helped you, whomever you may be. Just remember to keep pushing. Every storm must end. The light is peeping through the darks clouds. You can see it if you just look up!

I love you all! Xo.
Tiana

Twitter: CutiePiee_

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My Attention is a GIFT, Not a GUARANTEE!

It took me a minute to find a topic for my next post. Just joking around, I finally found my next topic: Attention. I made a post not too long ago about attention. I was directly speaking to those who crave attention. Now, I’m talking to those who require attention but do not return the favor. When I refer to attention, in this context, I speak on attention in a general meaning. This is for friendships, and relationships.

Now let’s chat.

It is one thing for a person to try to get attention, but it’s a totally different thing for them not to reciprocate. Let me break it down further. It’s not okay for someone to require a friend, significant other, or acquaintance to constantly provide attention, yet cannot take a minute out of the day to do the same. Better yet, they cannot even be courteous enough to give the same amount of attention. Some people really have the game twisted.

If you are a person that has the juice (as many of us like to say), then one day you are juiceless… You need to check what you’re doing. You cannot expect for people to bend their backs trying to make you feel important, and they don’t get the same reaction. With friendships, people will not be there for you, show you the loyalty and support that you need unless you are able to match it; same for relationships.

Since the beginning of time, the world works through trade. Want something? Match my price. Period. Nothing is 80/20, everything is 50/50 – scratch that – everything is 100/100. For every action, there ought to be an equal reaction. What you put in, is what you get out.

Now it’s time to self evaluate.
-Do you wonder why people don’t treat you the same?
-Do you no longer get the attention that you once had?
-Do you have a problem with someone showing you the attention you “think” you deserve?
If you’re having a hard time answering these questions, or your answer is yes, then check what you do.

I love you all! Xo.
Tiana

Twitter: CutiePiee_

“What you grow, is based on the seed you sow.”
– Bishop Edgar Vann

*not only applicable to tithes and offering*

The Thirst is Too Real

Why must folks be so thirsty? The world may never know.

Let me back track for those who may be a little lost… Thirsty is a term commonly used by teens to refer to the act of begging for attention or going to extreme measures to gain attention. Now back to the regularly scheduled program…

People are taking ‘Thirst’ to a new level. The things that people do to get attention is ridiculous. Especially on social media sites. Twerking videos, half naked pictures, you name it, I’ve seen it and then some. People think it cute, but it looks desperate.

We are approaching valentine’s day weekend, and I’ve seen thirst reach an all time high. Now let’s pause for the cause. Valentine’s day is meant for dedicating a day to somebody special or a significant other. Let me ask this: Why, oh why, are people begging for somebody to be their valentine? If you don’t have a significant other then follow these steps:
1) Stop the Thirst
2) Dust Yourself off
3) Wait for somebody to come, if they don’t then be happy with being with yourself (stick a pin in the underlined phrase)
4) BE YOUR OWN VALENTINE, or Treat a friend/group of friends

Trust me ya’ll it’s not the end of the world if you don’t have a valentine. No 2014 valentine? Cool. Wait patiently for somebody to come along next time. Waiting for somebody worth being a valentine is a lot better than searching for a temporary, insignificant one. Same goes for Sweetest Day!

On a normal day, its no different. I see people begging for attention; directly and indirectly. I just want some of ya’ll to know that you have to learn to be comfortable with yourself. If you are comfortable with yourself, then you won’t need – scratch that – you wouldn’t want attention. Don’t get me wrong, its always cool to ask for somebody to talk to. Doing it all the time? That’s not cool.

If you are pics or videos to bring attention to your body, you may want to check your self-esteem level (see my last post). If your begging for somebody to always talk to or chat with on social media, check your desperation level. Twerk videos every week? You just need to have a seat.

Since I’m talking about thirst, let me address how people are quick to use the word thirsty. If someone is showing interest in you, then it is NOT THIRST. Unless they blow up your phone 24/7 and they can’t catch a hint, then you may happily label them as thirsty. Now if they are genuinely showing you that they would like to get to know you, and take the time to give you the attention you are begging for, then that is labeled as caring. Half of you complain about wanting some attention and when somebody is willing to go above and beyond that, then ya’ll call them thirsty. I don’t understand that.

We, as a generation need to get it together. There is too much priority placed on gaining attention and there is no urgency to be comfortable with being with yourself. Be comfortable with the little attention you get. All attention isn’t good attention. You shouldn’t want everyone in your space because no every is benefitting you (this will be a whole other post that is coming soon). Only have a few friends or people to talk to? Make the most out of it! People please, people please, people please. Don’t let somebody special pass you by because you want to sit on your high horse and call them thirsty. Just keep that in mind.

I love you all! Xo.
Tiana

Twitter: CutiePiee_

“It’s an interesting combination: Having a great fear of being alone, and having a desperate need for solitude and the solitary experience. That’s always been a tug of war for me.”
– Jodie Foster

“I finally faced the fact that it isn’t a crime not having friends. Being alone means you have fewer problems.”
– Whitney Houston

Love Yourself!

Why does the world tell us that we – ladies- have to look a certain way to be labeled beautiful? High cheek bones. Skin of marble. Hair down to the waist. Wide hips. Thick legs. Eyes of a different color other than brown. Flat stomach. We have to be shaped like the ideal “coca-cola bottle”. The world wants us to look perfect, but perfect is impossible.

Real beauty comes in different shapes and sizes. Curvy, straight, round, or boxy. No matter what your shape is, you are beautiful. Being different is beautiful. Knowing that in some way, you don’t look like anyone else. Even identical twins have something that makes them different, even though the difference is a slight fraction. What I find unattractive is looking like everyone else. Being different makes you special. Irreplaceable.

Real beauty is being comfortable in your own skin. Love who you are and love what you look like. Even supermodels need make-up and a little photoshop to make them seem flawless. Learning to make your flaws work for you is attractive.

My point in saying this: Ladies, please stop compromising your bodies to make someone else think you are beautiful. The way you are now, with your clothes on, flaws and all, you are gorgeous. Never forget it. Don’t let the world swindle you into thinking your not. You don’t have to take half naked pictures for people to notice you. You most definitely don’t need to over accentuate your curves. The greatest curve you have is your smile.

The One who created us made us just the way He wanted. Embrace you. I don’t know about ya’ll, but I love my skinny legs, big forehead, and all. Yes, we all have our insecurities. It’s perfectly normal. We are all human. Do not, under any circumstances, allow your insecurities to make you change. FYI, I guarantee that your knight in shining armor, wherever he may be in this world, will love you for who you are. Your REAL friends will love you for who you are.

If you don’t tell yourself that you are beautiful, if you don’t see yourself as beautiful, nobody else will.

I love you all! Xo.
Tiana

Twitter: CutiePiee_

“Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God’s handwriting.”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson